Fear Reigns

Timorous
indecisive
curse the past
I don't know the right thing to do

(did I ever?)

a new friend
so hard to come by

hands thrown in the air
confusion reigns over me
rains down on me
arrows falling from the sky
pierced to the core of my uncertainty
fear in the air
like the stench of fresh vomit

exchanging words over dinner
later over coffee

hands frozen over the keyboard
fingers like dry twigs
brittle, useless

I want to be in your company again

so easily confident at first
where did it go
did I miss a sign
did I not make a signal
words unspoken
failure to communicate
malfunction junction
lost and inadequate
what the fuck
?

© 2008 Michael Shelby